I often wonder how every instant in my life is clouded by the fear of failing,
I often marvel at how every second I am fearful of going through the worst tribulation,
I am often puzzled by how difficult life is turning out to be day after day,
Just when I feel this is is the worst that could ever happen to me, life throws me into another battle, worst than the former,
Just when I feel I have overcome a serious problem, another is thrown at my head, not giving me the opportunity to recover or evade the blow,
Failed relationships & Heartbreaks,
expecting too much,
everyone wanting a bit of you,
Sickness and Despair,
Sorrow and loneliness
I have been through it all,
How much more am I to endure?
How much more do I have to go through?
Is it never going to end?
When am I going to feel contentment and calm in my life?
When am I going to be genuinely happy with my life?
All the hopes, ambitions, aspirations that I once had
All the dreams and desires I once envisioned for myself
are dulling amidst the chaos of life
All the positivity, bravery, courage
are evaporating into thin air
Everything that I ever wanted is shredding into tiny droplets of despair
Hanging on to suck the breath out of me
Wanting to make me devoid of any kind of hope
forcing me to succumb to anguish and frustration,
leading me to a path of darkness and melancholy,
Igniting an echo that flows endlessly around me,